Sunday, May 15, 2016
I am strong because I am a woman. Women hold such a special roll, even though we are constantly shown otherwise as a sex symbol, inferior, just a "stay at home mom". I hate all those things. We are strong. We are fighters. I am a fighter. I am strong willed. I fight the temptation to completely sluff my kids off to the side all the time and make time for only "me". I find that the adversary has gotten a little hold of my way of mommyhood. Everyday is a struggle for me. I know what works in MY mothering and what doesn't. I appreciate those of you who mother differently than me. It reminds me that I can always strive for things I want to change. Kids are all sorts of different, we can't change that, but we can change how we react to them. That is something I struggle with, but the fact I try says something. I have a hard time prioritizing them first most days. But progress is progress. I find myself making time for cleaning, or organizing, work, other things that need tending to but them...its tough but I know I am strong enough to overcome.
I am strong enough to get over physical hurdles in my health. I have suffered major hairloss that has to be covered up. Dear friends help me by giving me hugs, showing words of encouragement, making me a special hair piece. ( feel like a rockstar in it BTW). On one hand it is just hair, maybe I could totally rock a bald head, on the other hand I would have to deal with looks, questions, people I know looking at me differently trying to not stare, or ask, or trying to find the words TO say without being distracted by my bald head. I am aware of all the things. But I know that whatever happens, I can be strong.
I am strong because I help people. I pride myself in knowing the right words to say, better yet, the words the Lord would have me say to someone in need or is hurting. I have always found a special place in my heart for those who need attention and love and a shoulder to cry on. I can be strong for them when they can't be for themselves.
I am strong. I am a woman.